Wednesday, December 29, 2010
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Friday, December 17, 2010
There is nothing quite like the realization of need. It hits you all at once and there’s nothing you can do to stop it–sometimes that’s the last thing you want to do. Like what I realized today.
I realized that I can’t live without someone. And to me, it feels like a million different things. Of course, it feels blissful. To know your love for someone is that deep is beautiful. It’s as if thousand of your most desired dreams came true at once; it’s like a hundred of your happiest moments combined into one. And yet, it was full of sorrow. Because this realization of need cannot be exercised. Distance drives a wedge into the sudden urgency of need, and there is nothing that can be done. It felt so desperate…this sheer need for him…and no way to hold him, kiss his forehead and tell him. The realization was also scary–but for just a moment. When you realize you need someone that much, you can only believe in their words and hope that they are in the same place as you. Because even the idea of losing someone you love so much feels like suffocation. But to know your own love, you must know theirs, too. And I know his.
To know love is to know enough. I could die tomorrow and be the happiest person on Earth simply because I love and am loved in return. So to my realization: “Go ahead and revel in the beauty of seeing love in its deepest form. Go ahead and feel the sorrow, because it will only bring you closer to him. And as far as your fear–let it go. Because love this strong cannot be broken no matter the distance. Believe in what you know, his love.”
“Hope is alive
while we’re apart
speak from my heart
break the chains
that hold us down
and we shall be
-I Shall Not Walk Alone, Ben Harper
Monday, December 13, 2010
There is a heart of two, split in half and
stretched across a vast expanse of ocean and land.
The burn of separation lingers in the air, choking both halves,
leaving a solitary sense of longing.
Time ticks on, the sun rises, the tide laps, the stars fade
and the clouds roll over endless mountains.
But all seems still in these moments of division,
as if the Earth truly does stop its continual circles.
Distance from ones second half is seemingly unfair,
unjust and simply unnecessarily cruel.
Two bodies filling one soul should never dwell apart…
although the reality is never such.
Hope finds its way into even the most obscure,
unrelenting patterns of sadness and lonliness.
It is love.
Love endures all, no matter how many miles it must travel.
Love binds us, however far.
Love is what moves us through this life.
It is what reunites us back to a simpler, more natural place.